“Hi”.

Isn’t that what you say after you have taken a long break from talking to someone who used to be really close? or do I say, someone you used to share some form of commitment with?

Well hi. It’s been a while and it’s been a lot. Three months ago (sounds like forever ago), I was the guy on fire right? One article every week, a lot of hype. Then something happened…

I compared myself to someone I actually thought bigger. I didn’t stop there. I did more of it and had nothing to stop me in my tracks. And behold, I did it for three good months! Guess what? I didn’t get anything out of it.

I lost myself for three months trying to be somebody else. A total waste of myself. But here I am, three months later, a sober message, a prodigal return from trying to be somebody else to kinda starting all over being me.

Oops…

Am I starting to complain a lot? Sorry! I did this continuously for three months. I knew I’d come out of that loop… eventually. Or am I really out?

I didn’t come here to make the “I’m Back” promise or commit to writing and publishing 1 article per week. I won’t dare (smirk). But I really want to be here without promising to be. I would love to be here without it seeming like work. No matter how much I have thought of quitting, the force that makes me write is still stronger and believe me, I’ve been doing a lot of the writing in my head! lol

I actually like to thoroughly examine the odd side before coming for the good you know? I don’t regret anything. Know why? I went for a Self Reflection exercise! And trust me I have learnt a lot by not writing for almost 3 months! Well, maybe I “Sneaky Did” but I really don’t think I did.

What were my results? Findings? Am I supercharged? Nope! Not at all.

But I managed to bring something out!

I managed to examine what it means to be “Productive” and here is what I brought for ya 😀

1. Every day does not need to be “productive”.

A lot of people measure the value of each day based on what you were able to achieve. If you have to be ‘productive’ every day, when will you really ‘live’? I guess I got something out of that after trying out other things and not writing for 3 months.

2. Productivity should be thought of as time well spent.

In other words, no matter what the heck I went to do, was it a valuable use of my time? Hell Yeah!

3. There is nothing more valuable and productive than the appreciation of being alive right now at the moment.

Getting to be free from all your thoughts, worries, battles, schedule, to-do, commitment and instead being thankful for who you are, what you already have and what you can achieve even without thinking about all those things. It went a long way for me. The days I spent this way proved to be far better than a whole day of getting stuff done.

So let’s wrap it up! Do you think I’m gonna be writing anything cool soon? I don’t know too.