Isn’t that what you say after you have taken a long break from talking to someone who used to be really close? or do I say, someone you used to share some form of commitment with?
Well hi. It’s been a while and it’s been a lot. Three months ago (sounds like forever ago), I was the guy on fire right? One article every week, a lot of hype. Then something happened…
I compared myself to someone I actually thought bigger. I didn’t stop there. I did more of it and had nothing to stop me in my tracks. And behold, I did it for three good months! Guess what? I didn’t get anything out of it.
I lost myself for three months trying to be somebody else. A total waste of myself. But here I am, three months later, a sober message, a prodigal return from trying to be somebody else to kinda starting all over being me.
Am I starting to complain a lot? Sorry! I did this continuously for three months. I knew I’d come out of that loop… eventually. Or am I really out?
I didn’t come here to make the “I’m Back” promise or commit to writing and publishing 1 article per week. I won’t dare (smirk). But I really want to be here without promising to be. I would love to be here without it seeming like work. No matter how much I have thought of quitting, the force that makes me write is still stronger and believe me, I’ve been doing a lot of the writing in my head! lol
I actually like to thoroughly examine the odd side before coming for the good you know? I don’t regret anything. Know why? I went for a Self Reflection exercise! And trust me I have learnt a lot by not writing for almost 3 months! Well, maybe I “Sneaky Did” but I really don’t think I did.
What were my results? Findings? Am I supercharged? Nope! Not at all.
But I managed to bring something out!
I managed to examine what it means to be “Productive” and here is what I brought for ya 😀
A lot of people measure the value of each day based on what you were able to achieve. If you have to be ‘productive’ every day, when will you really ‘live’? I guess I got something out of that after trying out other things and not writing for 3 months.
In other words, no matter what the heck I went to do, was it a valuable use of my time? Hell Yeah!
Getting to be free from all your thoughts, worries, battles, schedule, to-do, commitment and instead being thankful for who you are, what you already have and what you can achieve even without thinking about all those things. It went a long way for me. The days I spent this way proved to be far better than a whole day of getting stuff done.
So let’s wrap it up! Do you think I’m gonna be writing anything cool soon? I don’t know too.